Been Kinda Crazy

I know I haven't posted like I wanted too.  But life has been kinda crazy.  Looking for work, trying to keep my head above water with homework.  Would rather be writing, then doing anything else, except for sleep.

I have had a rough couple of weeks.  So everything, I mean everything, has fallen to the side.  I need to get my house back into a livable condition since it is a disaster.  Tripping over things to turn off the alarm clock would not be good if I ended up hitting my head against the corner of the desk.

But life will get better, I just don't know when.  Hopefully sooner rather then later.

In better news, I went to the release party of Oliva, written by my friend Julie Wright.  It is in an 8 book series, written by 3 other authors besides Julie, Josi S.Kilpack, Heather Brown Moore and Annette Luthy Lyon.  I am looking forward to reading them all.

Being at the release party, people asked me what I was writing.  I gave them a brief synopsis of my manuscript and they all seemed excited about it.  Authors and readers alike.  That was very encouraging.  Something that was good for me to hear.

I am really interested in writing horror for the younger audience, which Julie knows, she was surprised because this manuscript is historical fiction and not horror or even something close.  But I feel it is important to try and write in each genre so that I can learn and grow as an author.

One thing that I have learned writing this manuscript is that I love history so much that I would get sidetracked by my research and ended up at point J when I should have stopped at point C.  So I don't think writing historical fiction would be a good fit for me.

LTUE

This past week I went to LTUE, a writers conference that was held at UVU.  I learned so much, and I had such an enjoyable time.  It has motivated me again to jump in head first.

As of my goals from last week.  I did finish one homework assignment.  I did survive.

I didn't finish a scene.  But then I was learning about things that I know I need to improve on.

The one homework assignment I thought I did right was done wrong.  So I need to finish that, along with everything other homework assignment I have too do.

Goals for this coming week:

Work out a time to sub with the teacher I need to do the math practicum with.
Write at least one scene, if not more.
Finish homework, get caught up in homework.
Start to edit, my friends manuscript that I said I would.

So far.....

I am surviving,

Haven't finished all homework.  Have two more two do. Only one will get done.

I still have yet to work on a scene.  BUT IT WILL HAPPEN!!

I have had two job interviews.  One yesterday, and one today!!

This Weeks Goals

First survive the week.

Second, get caught up on homework before I leave for LTUE.

Third, I am now including homework with my writing.  I am adding, to work on at least two scenes in a week.  I think I can manage that.  Hopefully I can.

Also get teaching jobs subbing.

Dreams, broken quills, and me

My friend Jayrod, posted on his blog. http://the1stog.blogspot.com/ He asked for us to tell him about our hopes and dreams.  Well my comment was turning into a novel, and something that I thought I should share on my blog instead. So what are my dreams?  What do I really want out of my life?

At the moment my dream  is to find a job, to find a place to live that will accept my two cats and something that I can afford.  To actually work on my writing instead of saying I need to work on my writing.  To get out of the funk I am in and to start living my life at the moment.

I recently realized also because of Jayrod's blog, that  I am not sacrificing enough, to obtain my dreams.  I need to stop playing my computer games, and do homework instead and work on my novel.  I know I say I should do it.  But with what has recently happened in my life.  I really don't want to do anything.  But waste away my time, because when I am playing my game, winning the level is all I think about, and my stress leaves for the moment.  Though I do know that it doesn't help me reach my dreams.

Tease me all you want Jayrod.  =-)

But I will do better.  I will work harder to make my life how I know it can be, how it should be, how it needs to be.  I feel I am a grinded up quill at the moment.  I need to feel whole again.

For that I need to start living my life instead of hiding from it.

I need to prioritize my time.

I need to focus on living the life that I have been taught how to live.

I need to organize myself so that I can accomplish the most in each day.  This means not staying up until 2 playing my games, and waking up at 5, instead of sleeping until 12.

I need to complete my homework, the next day, instead of trying to do it in an hour before class.

I need to live by faith and not fear.

I need to look at the bright side of things instead of focusing on the bad.

I need to work on my novel.

I will do this in increments.  I will first start by living in faith and not in fear, and going to bed early, and working on the homework.  I wish I could do this all at once, but I don't have a magic wand.

Thanks Jayrod, for making me think about what I really want out of life, so that I won't be a broken quill anymore, but one that is whole and vibrant.  I am glad I am your friend.