Dreams, broken quills, and me

My friend Jayrod, posted on his blog. http://the1stog.blogspot.com/ He asked for us to tell him about our hopes and dreams.  Well my comment was turning into a novel, and something that I thought I should share on my blog instead. So what are my dreams?  What do I really want out of my life?

At the moment my dream  is to find a job, to find a place to live that will accept my two cats and something that I can afford.  To actually work on my writing instead of saying I need to work on my writing.  To get out of the funk I am in and to start living my life at the moment.

I recently realized also because of Jayrod's blog, that  I am not sacrificing enough, to obtain my dreams.  I need to stop playing my computer games, and do homework instead and work on my novel.  I know I say I should do it.  But with what has recently happened in my life.  I really don't want to do anything.  But waste away my time, because when I am playing my game, winning the level is all I think about, and my stress leaves for the moment.  Though I do know that it doesn't help me reach my dreams.

Tease me all you want Jayrod.  =-)

But I will do better.  I will work harder to make my life how I know it can be, how it should be, how it needs to be.  I feel I am a grinded up quill at the moment.  I need to feel whole again.

For that I need to start living my life instead of hiding from it.

I need to prioritize my time.

I need to focus on living the life that I have been taught how to live.

I need to organize myself so that I can accomplish the most in each day.  This means not staying up until 2 playing my games, and waking up at 5, instead of sleeping until 12.

I need to complete my homework, the next day, instead of trying to do it in an hour before class.

I need to live by faith and not fear.

I need to look at the bright side of things instead of focusing on the bad.

I need to work on my novel.

I will do this in increments.  I will first start by living in faith and not in fear, and going to bed early, and working on the homework.  I wish I could do this all at once, but I don't have a magic wand.

Thanks Jayrod, for making me think about what I really want out of life, so that I won't be a broken quill anymore, but one that is whole and vibrant.  I am glad I am your friend.